'just friends'

if someone ask me why in world i would love you, i'll say..

'dia buat aku gelak, waktu aku rasa aku dah tak mampu senyum'  and he don't even need to be infront of me to do that so.


you see..


and you said i'm special too. and thanks for treating me like one.

i'm sorry. i can't write a long post about you. and i can't put our picture together. or atleast your picture alone. cause i don't wan't to caught red handed falling in love with my own 'bestfriend'

you never lied to me. you never said things that will hurt me.
but you see, someone told me a hurtful thing about what you said to her about me.
she said, you said that:

"i treat every girl the same. seri and i are just friends"

and that broke the shit out of ma heart.


it's not the 'just friends' part that hurt the hell out of me. it's the "i treat every girl the same" that makes me fall apart hearing it. i don't care if you said you only think of me as your bestfriend. but i do care when you said that other part. so, i'm nothing special to you huh?

but boy..


i'm not gonna tell you. not now 
and if you ever found out, i will deny.
and boy... that's the only thing i'm gonna lie to you all my life. 
(Quotes here)

let's keep this my little secret.

you know what hurts more than being 'kawan je' with the person
you're in love with?

being their best friend. 

but you know what's worst?

they know that you're secretly in love with em'
but they act like nothing is wrong. and slowly slowly leaving.

no. i don't need to be your girlfriend.
being your bestfriend is more than enough.
but you have a lot of girl best friends...
and everytime i sleep, i closed my eyes and hope i had you all for my self.
even as a bestfriend.


i know you're threw with love.
but baby i swear, i will love you more than those bitches before.


you know me best and you made me laugh.
and you fit me better than my favourite sweater.


so i'll promise you that..


but i'll keep this my own little secret.

i can't have you all for my self.
cause i'm not your only friend.
you have thousands of them.
am i even your best friend?

thanks for giving me this song.
Lana Del Rey -Blue Jeans.

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