you get bored easily.


"You get bored easily",

that's what they say, 

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To them, i move on too easily, I put the phone down too fast, ignored the texts, reject the calls and move on to the next guy so simply. To them, i treat guys like they are flavour of the week. To them, i am the girl who leaves. 

But, I was the girl who stayed.

I was the girl who stayed even when things get rough. I was the girl who stayed even when the texts got lesser, the calls got short and rough, and the date nights no longer existent. I was the girl who stayed even when she knew she had a choice to walk away.

But I became the girl who leaves.

I became the girl who could care less the hearts she left behind, I became the one guy's text constantly, trying to make plans, and I dismiss them, one by one. I became the girl who doesn't give  a second thought to their feelings, rejecting them and leaving them. I became the girl who leaves. 

I wasn't always that kind of girl.

I used to be the girl who constantly gives second chances even when they don't deserve it. I used to be the girl who will take guys back if he would only just apologize. I used to be the girl who let her guard down so easily that just anyone could come in, say a few sweet words and have my heart handed over to them. I used to be that girl. I used to have my heart on my sleeve all the time, putting in so much time and effort into every relationship or almost-relationship even though it was not reciprocated. I constantly held on to faith and hope, trusting that things will somehow work itself out and I will have my happily ever after. 

But things don;t always happen that way.

With every heartbreak, I began to realize what i want, what I deserve. With every piece of my heart taken and thrown away, I began to build a wall around the pieces left to protect myself. Guard myself with walls so high no one can get around it. Locked my heart and throw the keys far away. I began to trust people less and was so sure that everyone who enters my life will eventually leaves, so I became the girl who leaves. And so I became the girl who leaves, before i'm left.

But hope that someday I'll meet someone who'll make me stay, this time, with him. 


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